My Testimony

I was by birth a Tamil Brahmin (Iyengar) and grew up in an orthodox family in Trichy, a Town and district in the state of Tamilnadu. Was brought up from the young age in the fear of God and during my school days used to attend sloka classes every evening being conducted by our neighbor who also belonged to the Brahmin sect. Like every enthusiastic Brahmin child, I also religiously used to recite the slokas being taught but without actually knowing the meaning it conveys. Neither we used to ask nor did they use to teach us. Had my early school education from a Hindu institution and later moved to a Christian Institution for continuing my High school education. I was not exposed to the Christian faith and its true values. I only knew that there exists a Religion by name Christianity, but neither was aware of the God in Christianity nor about the Bible.

After completing my school, I pursued my Pre-University and later graduated as a Mechanical Engineer. It was during my Engineering college days, for the First time I heard about The Lord Jesus Christ and His Gospel being preached by some students at the college laboratory building after the college hours. Being a staunch Hindu and a Brahmin, with many of the students who are like minded used to hate them for attempting to convert fellow students to Christianity. I have never heard either from my elders in the family nor from any religious Hindu pundits what is sin and what all are classified as sin. The Bible records a long list of the lusts of the flesh (Classified as sin) in Galatians Chapter 5 verses 19-21. (A few of them such as Adultery, Fornication, uncleanness, idolatory, sorcery, hatred, jealousies, outburst of wrath, selfish ambitions, dissensions, heresies, envy, murders, drunkenness and rivalries).Being unaware of what is sin in those days, I had indulged myself in all kinds of sin and was a wretch. But still was pious and had the fear of God. Since I did not have a foreknowledge of what all are classified as sin, was not afraid of the sinful life I practiced and neither was of the opinion that it requires a repentance and confession to God.

It was in those days, inspired by my neighbor, who also happened to be my classmate in the school we started to visit the temple in “Samayapuram” located at a distance of around thirteen kilometers from our residence by foot to worship the deity, a goddess. This became a regular feature and I made a vow that whenever I visit the temple I shall walk by foot. Things were all going smooth and I mentally concluded that by worshipping this deity I will settle well and lead a Happy and Blissful life.

After graduation, I took up employment, was enjoying life having fun and frolic with friends but continuing in all kinds of sin. It was during these days I had a passion to study scientific astrology and after reading several books started practicing it. I started following the stellar movement and started casting the Horoscopes for many in the Family and the Friends circle and predicting their life events. My mother was a very pious lady and has suffered a lot in the upbringing of the family and the Children. She used to have the highest level of patience which really was an inspiration to me for having inherited that attitude and quality from her. In the early Ninety’s, I finally got married to a close relative of mine. We were leading a happy life in the beginning and a daughter was also born to us. It was during my Professional career in the mid Ninety’s, I had a break in my employment for nearly three times and each time was unemployed for nearly more than six months. To many I was predicting their future, but could not read the future of my own life. During the days of unemployment, my wife used to quarrel for the state of life we were in. Although I used to give a patient hearing to all that, I used to cry in the dark to God, why it should happen to me alone, when all others who were born with me are all settled in their life. Is there anything I could do about it? Inspired by our close relatives, we used to run to sooth sayers, diviners who all predicted a rosy picture and asked us to do many poojas and offerings and atonements. But to our surprise it all ended up in vain. We were draining all our savings.

It was during the beginning of the year 1996, while continuing to be in unemployment, suddenly I developed health problems. It all started with problems in the stomach. Each day used to be a painful day for me with severe bloating up of the stomach and pain near the sternum. At first I thought it was acidity and started taking both Allopathic and Homeopathic medicines. The medicines did not bring any relief. I started passing sleepless nights. After my wife and daughter were asleep, I used to open out the main door of my house, go out into the verandah and hold on to the grill and keep looking at the skies and call the gods I kept worshipping. I also used to search for the real God.  If at all he existed, I wanted to know Him and the answers. It was all in vain and ended up with no immediate answer.

In the mean time my stomach problem got aggravated and nothing has worked and was getting complex. I consulted my family physician who was treating me who advised me to go for an endoscopy. The endoscopy was performed and the doctors could not find anything abnormal with the system except for a small ulcer in the stomach and the intestine. I was prescribed to take medicines for eight weeks after which they said I will return normal.

I started to be on the prescribed medicine, but at the same time my problems got complex. Also I used to feel hungry every hour and I used to take something or the other to keep hunger away. At one stage, my wife used to keep food in the Refrigerator and I used to eat almost every few hours knowing not where it all goes. I was gripped with fear as my health was deteriorating. It was at this point of time, our neighbor a woman who happened to be a Christian, during her conversation with my wife one day asked her, what has happened to your husband. I used to see him in the nights holding on to the grill and keep looking at the skies seeking something. My wife explained the problem to her.

Whereas on the one hand this happened, I recollected the incident of my ex-colleague who was wrongly operated and was almost on the verge of inability. He was miraculously and instantaneously healed at a prayer meeting of Dr.D.G.S Dhinakaran. I had determined in my heart to try it out. Our neighbor also after talking to my wife suggested to her to take me for a prayer meeting organized on Fridays at a house in that locality. It was addressed by a Pastor from a place called Guduvanchery (Chennai), who also prayed for the sick. She also had given my wife a bottle of prayed oil and a small chit on which were written the two sentences. “ There is victory in the Blood Of Jesus” “Lord Jesus Heal me”. She asked my wife to apply the oil on my stomach and then utter the above words. It was 19^th April 1996 a Friday, the pastor who was to come and pray for me did not turn up. Me, my wife with daughter as preplanned left to Trichy to fulfill the Vow I had made to the deity that I will not only walk by foot but also roll my stomach in the Temple outer courtyard three times which I have done a couple of times before also,such that I can taste the healing.

I also started to apply the oil in my stomach and used to recite the words written and handed over by our neighbor. We returned to Chennai and within the next one week my stomach problems got further deteriorated with no signs of any improvement. Finally it was Friday again the 26^th April 1996 at 10.30 AM our neighboring lady called my wife and said the Pastor has come to the House where Prayer meeting is organized and if we are interested we can attend. The instant my wife said this to me, I told her we will give it a go and will attend. Me, my wife along with our daughter and together with our neighbor went into that house. I was introduced to that Pastor who asked me what my problems are. I explained to him the problem.

He took out the Bible and read out the Word of God from Psalms 91:14-16

As he read it aloud, the word of the Lord which I have never heard it before produced in me a hope and I knelt before requesting for a prayer. The Pastor laid his hands upon me and said My dear son “ I have foreknown you and also predestined you” ( Romans 8:29) immediately he took out his hand. He asked me did you see the doctors? What have they said? I had explained to him in detail. Immediately he started prophesying, that I am under the power of witchcraft done by someone and there is an evil spirit residing in me that is causing me sickness. He also said that the Lord is showing him a Dry tree perishing. You have come at the right time. People have done it that you should die and your wife should become a widow. The Lord wants to deliver you. I see a Talisman being worn by you. If you would remove it I will pray for you. Almost instantaneously, as he finished talking, I pulled out the rope with the talisman that was around my neck and knelt before for prayer. He laid his hand and started to pray. I felt something happening inside me. He said that my body shook and Rotated and came to a halt. Again he laid his hands and prayed and said, the evil spirit that was possessing you had left. Jesus has delivered you. But still your stomach does have a medicine that was set for your destruction in the inside of it which has to be taken out. We did not pay any fees to him. He sent us saying we will see the difference and discern accordingly as to who is God. I felt an instantaneous relief in my stomach discomfort and the hunger that I used to have before had vanished. Without even thanking the Man of God and the Household we returned Home.

The Miracle that I received, soon led me to an immediate conclusion that the God of Christianity “ Jesus “ is the True God and the idols that I had been worshipping till that point of time are all not a reality which led me to keep them off from the Pooja shelf in our house. That day evening, it was while we were at a nearby park, I entered into a deep sleep after having spent sleepless nights for many days. After returning to our home, I neither was hungry nor was in a mood to eat anything but only wanted to continue sleeping and went ahead to sleep. I was continuously  calling the Lord Jesus even in my deep slumber.

It was around 01.30 AM, I could hear heavy barking sound of dogs outside. I saw a vision in which there was a witch sitting and I was standing before it. It was commanding me to stand before the idols that I had worshipped telling me their names and asking me to bow down before them. I was obeying as it commanded. Suddenly, I saw a lightening coming down from the skies and hitting that witch and upon receiving it, it stumbled staggered and struggled to hold its breadth and finally fell down losing its power and defeated. The vision was followed up with another vision wherein I saw two persons who were very close to our family who dared to set witchcraft against me and my family. In the morning I got up and I shared the visions with my wife. Later as advised by the pastor, I took the prayed oil and the coconut milk in an empty stomach. After Half an hour of consuming it I started purging and it went on up to 3 O’clock that afternoon and me and my wife could see all the medicines that was hidden in the stomach all along (Black in colour) were purged out and it finally stopped. Even in the midst of weakness, suddenly a strength sustained me and had a peaceful and comfortable sleep that night.

We stopped idol worship and used to offer our prayers to the Lord Jesus only in whatever way we know. Things did not end there. There were continued attacks and the nights for me used to be tormenting with something hitting me from behind and I used to be thrown out of bed. I immediately used to kneel down remembering the Vision and call upon the Lord. Slowly I used to get peace in the inside of me and then fall asleep. As the attacks were repeated, I used to run to the “ Jesus Calls “ prayer tower and used to seek the help of one Bro.Theodre who used to pray for me with great burden. It was there I came to know of the Perinba Peruvizha prayer festival and me and my wife attended it on a Tuesday. The Speaker that day was Bro.Dr.John Joseph and through Him God spoke to me and said “ That Power belongs to Him”. We continued attending the entire prayer festival for the remaining days. We used to have peace at that time but have night mares and repeated attacks. God’s word through Bro. Dr.John Joseph was so powerful and I used to attend His Tuesday meetings at Nurses association in Egmore. It was at the very first time I went there God spoke to me through His servant and told me “ He has given my life as a Prize to me, because I have put my trust in Him” (Jeremiah 39:18). The word of the Lord entered into my spirit and brought me peace. Every evening we used to be away from our Home and It was at this point of time one of the two who set witchcraft against us used to visit our house and place a bus ticket in the Big locks that used to hang in the door in which were the words written that I came to see you and you are not found. For many days the man had not visited us, but suddenly trying to visit us caused some doubts in our minds that he is repeatedly setting witchcraft at us and this was correlated and confirmed by the vision God has shown me. Me and my wife trusted and believed fully that The Lord Jesus Christ is a true God who only can deliver us. It is true according to the the word of God found in Psalm 124:7-8 which says "Our soul has escaped as a bird from the snare of the fowlers:The snare is broken, and we have escaped.Our help is in the name of the Lord who made the heaven and the earth. 

I who used to be a chronic smoker and a part time alcoholic had stopped it temporarily due to health problems. At the sign of returning to normal health, had an urge to resume them and at the very moment I used to entertain that thought in my heart, I used to get a voice behind my ears “ Do not do it  For I reside in the inside of you. I used to fear and after the second time the thought totally vanished and now seventeen years have passed by and I am totally delivered from those habits. Many times I have tried to put an end to it which was not possible, which the Lord My God Jesus made it possible and to Him be all Glory.

Finally the Lord helped us through my Brother in Law to get a job in New Delhi and we decided to leave Chennai, avoid all this mess and go and settle there. We went and settled in Delhi. Problems were not over as we continued to have some problems or other. We came into contact with a Christian family and started to go once in a while to a Tamil fellowship run by them in a school on Sundays. Our only dependence was on Jesus and playing and listening to Some Christian songs given to us by our fellow brothers at all times. Most of the times while we were in Delhi The Lord used to speak to me through His written word “I am the Lord your God and you shall have no other Gods before Me”. It was one fine Sunday afternoon suddenly my body was hot and the temperature read 106 Deg F. We went into our neighbor who was a doctor who refused to treat. We went to the house and lying on the bed, I started to sing the songs which we used to play and within moments the temperature dropped and came to normal. But my body became weak and for a day or two my throat was sore and could not speak. Later the Lord revealed to me that it was his fire anointing that came upon me.

The Lord used to speak to me through visions. As we were finding it difficult to grow spiritually and as led by the Lord through his vision we shifted to Chennai and took up another employment in the year 1997. I was happy and started growing spiritually by attending the Tuesday meetings of Bro.Dr.John Joseph. I also started reading books written by many servants of God and concluded that Jesus is the fulfillment of the God revealed in ancient Vedic scriptures. It was during August 1997 after hearing a sermon wherein it came to me directly that I must seek the Lord and His righteousness first. I understood the spiritual meaning. As led by the Lord in the same month, me and my wife repented and confessed to the Lord Jesus and committed our lives to Him and accepted Him as our personal savior. We were also given Baptism in the same month through the Pastor from Guduvanchery. From then on there has been no looking back and I started to grow spiritually in the Lord. After much prayer for a good local church to worship and have fellowship, the Lord led me to a local church in Ashok Nagar in which I am a member for over fifteen years now. There were believers of the Lord Jesus Christ in the work place too. The lord also used to speak to me through visions and through his gentle voice and used me as an instrument to prophesy over two fellow Christian sisters as to what He is going to do in their lives. One of them is a Brahmin convert like me. The prophesies came to pass by in their lives at Gods appointed time. As I was growing spiritually, there were troubled times and continued health problems. The Lord one day prophesied through one of His servant that He will heal my sickness. I also directly heard the voice of God saying that He will heal me. In spite of continued prayers there were no signs of them. In the midst of this, the Lord one day showed me a vision of delivering God’s message to a congregation. As a fulfillment of this vision, the call of God came to me in the year 2004 through the Pastor of the local church to deliver God’s message to the congregation. I obeyed the voice of God and as led by Him for the first time shared God’s Word to the congregation. Finally one day when me and my wife were fasting and praying in our house, the Lord’s healing suddenly manifested in me and I stand a testimony to it. Till this day as and when the call of God comes through the Pastor, I am used as an instrument by God to share His word for His Glory.

There is a Thirukkural which says “ Yepporul yar yar vai ketpinum Apporul meiporul kanbathu arivu”. So whatever you hear from me and read from these posts I am sharing with you, look for the true identity of God. The Word of God also tells us “ Test all things: hold fast what is good.”

It is not my intention to spread the religion of Christianity or to convert you to Christ by sharing this. The information made known to you are for your reading and discernment. Christianity is not owned by me. I am not going to be paid by any one for spreading it or convert someone to Christ. Jesus Christ revealed to me the truth and made me understand it and I was able to discern and accept it and my thought life changed.There was a total transformation in my life, my outlook, my words and deeds. There is a divine happiness and peace that filled my heart. I am dead to my past sinful life and received a new life. This spiritual process is ongoing. There is a growing thirst in my soul, to make this known to all, and none should  perish, but come to the knowledge of  the one True Creator and accept the Divine provision and enjoy the happiness and peace and be partakers of Eternal life.

As I used to pray for a way to be opened up to reach out to everyone, the Lord started laying a burden in my heart to work on a web site with pages sharing the concept and truth about the True God. For the past so many days as per the leading of God, and whatever he has revealed to my heart and with His strength, I have worked on it and now with lot of prayers it has taken a shape and has been hosted. I thank My God given sister Rekha srinivasan whom God has blessed with tremendous talents to have inspired me and having spent her time in conceiving the layout and design of this Blog on my behalf for the Glory of the Living God. I am certain and pray that God has his due reward and shall open to her His good treasure, the heavens and bless all the works of her hand.

As the Word of God says

“ You are My witnesses.“ says the Lord that I am God.(Isaiah 43:12)

“ This was the Lord’s doing and it is marvelous in our eyes” (Mathew 21:42)

Me and my sister Rekha srinivasan are the living witnesses according to the above Words of God.We invite every reader of this testimony to explore the Love worth seeking (Jesus Christ) from the rest of the  posts.