Testimony 1

My name is Rekha.  I am from a Hindu Brahmin background and accepted Lord Jesus Christ as my savior when I was 24 years old. Every time when I think how I got saved, tears wells up my eyes.  Such a loving God who created this entire Universe came to reside in my heart as my Savior.  My mother was a very loving woman who taught me values in life and I grew up seeing her miseries in life.  I always used to have one question in my heart; is there a true God? If so, why so many sorrows in my family and in the world?  But I could never find an answer with my human mind.  As a Brahmin I knew about Hinduism and later got exposure to the other religions by pursuing my studies in Christian school and Muslim college.  There was a time when I became an atheist when I could not find an answer for my inner questions.  I had no interest to go to temples and follow any rituals.  Life went on like this and my inner man was always feeling sad about something and nothing of this world could satisfy me.  When my elder sister went through a crisis in her marital life, I was very much disturbed and started hating everybody, especially men.  To get a solution to the problem, I started doing everything what people told me to do, going to temples, meeting astrologers etc.  Alas, all was in vain. One night, I was so disturbed in my heart and before I went to sleep I cried out to the Almighty God like this; “If there is a true God, reveal to me who you are and put an end to all these sorrows”.  I also cried that if I am not going to get an answer I should get buried in the sand and no one should know that a girl like me existed in this world.  I woke up in the morning with a heavy heart.  In the course of the day, I spoke to one of my friends and she told me “Jesus Loves You”.  These words may look very common for many.  But at that moment, I felt that was the answer to my cry.  I became interested to pray to Jesus, but just to get relief from the problems that my family faced.  At that point in time, it was another way for me and I was really not interested to follow Jesus as my Savior.  I started attending the Church though I could not understand a word they spoke.  The first time when I attended and when the Pastor asked everybody to close the eyes for prayer, I closed my eyes.  I felt something like a human hand touching me and it was very gentle.  I thought it was the pastor who touched and prayed but later on I came to know it was not he.  In the following days, God started revealing Himself to me through His words and opened my spiritual ears and eyes so that I can understand what was spoken.  Deep in my heart, I only wanted to have some solution for my problem and never wanted to follow Jesus.  For the next two years there were so many ups and downs in my life but I was stubborn that I will not accept Jesus as my savior as I am a Brahmin by birth.  God started speaking to me through His Holy Spirit and I could hear His gentle voice wherever I went.  He used to answer all my questions.  These were some of the questions that I asked and He answered me;

Me: Jesus, you are so mean.  Why do you say that I should not follow other gods?

The gentle voice:  I am the One who created the heavens and earth and you cannot see me in the idols you worship.

Me: Then why did you not make me born in a Christian family and why I am born in a Brahmin family.

The gentle voice:  Child, I did not create religions, go to history and see who created religions.  Just because a person is born in a Christian family, he is not a Christian.  The one who follow me sincerely is my child.  You are only seeing yourself as a Brahmin, but I want to see you as my child.  Come to Me and accept Me.

Like this, God answered many of my questions through the gentle voice, through other believers and through the Church.  Now, I was clear that Jesus is the true God.  But still the self-will was holding me.  One day I told, God I know it is You who is speaking to me and I know You are the true God.  But please leave me.  I cannot accept you as my savior.  From that day I stopped hearing His voice.  But in the following weeks, I could not stay without attending the church.  In one of the services, God clearly spoke through the pastor “There is girl here whom I have been talking for a long time.  But you are rejecting me, “This is the time for your salvation and receive it”. I could clearly understand that God was speaking to me and I was pushed down on my knees and I accepted Jesus as my savior and told Jesus, whatever problems I may face, today, I accept you as my personal savior and I committed my life to him.  Though I went to Jesus for a solution to my problem, I received the greatest miracle of salvation.  It has been more than eighteen years now and I cannot put everything in this testimony how God has been leading me.  I underwent lot of sufferings when I confessed my faith to my parents but God was by my side all through these years.  I am married to a believer from Brahmin background and Jesus has been so faithful to me.  All Glory to God!

Through this testimony, I would like to give a call to all the people, especially youngsters.  We ask so many questions for many worldly things.  But when it comes to God, we close our eyes and accept what our parents say and follow some religion and god blindly.  God says in His word “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”  I am sure every true search for God will end up in Jesus.  I pray for all those who read my testimony that God would open up your spiritual eyes and ears so that you may see “JESUS IS THE TRUE GOD AND SAVIOR”.  MAY GOD BLESS YOU.